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QU 2

2011-12-04T04:27:00.000-08:00

やっとJLPTをおわった！合格できるように～～～
最近は本当に忙しかった。
あまり自分の時間がないが、たくさん勉強した。
今日は言う事は今付き合うのはぜんぜん考えなかった。
誰にも。
好きになった、ありがとう。
でも、受けません。
はっきり言った、よっかた。
私、謝らない。
誰のせいじゃない、私も悪くない。
ただ、今まだ恋にしたくない。
恋なんで、面倒だ。いやややや！！！

I apologize that once again I'm not in love
But it's not as if I mind that your heart ain't exactly breaking

-quoted from Dido

2011/12/04

QU 1

2011-09-19T07:34:00.000-07:00

Cant tell how stupid I am. I am always the one who is being taken advantage of. U took everything then left ur chair whenever u like without asking me. Well, u think urself considerate enough for not hurting me. In fact, u do. U know it but u just continue doing this.

The silly me should be staying here n waiting for u whenever u want to hurt me again. "Its for ur good", thats the bullshit saying, I really hate it! Because nothing u do is for my own good, its for u. U only think of yourself. Enough of it, really fed up of ur attitude n deed. As usual, I will be the one who wait. This time I am giving 3 weeks. After that, you are done. Everything back to nothing as if never exists. For the last time, I really mean it.

2011/09/19

Quick update

2011-09-19T07:33:00.001-07:00

It's almost 11 when i finished taking a shower, applying mask n skin care.
This few days are restless, so my body is protesting. The worst part will be my skin condition! I am so terrified to stand in front of the mirror. Everything is in a mess. A lots of thing to catch up yet my brain is malfunctioning.

Its urgent to restore everything especially my skin. Now is working out on minimising the scars on the legs instead of eliminating acnes. After one month, everything should be in great condition. First of all, have a good night sleep. Good night, world.

17/9/11

The journey to Japan 8

2011-08-05T19:32:00.000-07:00

8：50被房间的电话吵醒。原来是mama打电话到酒店来提醒我酒店退房时间是九点。
我还以为是十点，就匆匆准备退房。真是迷糊，受不了。最后一天了，好好享受吧。
换了相机就决定去原宿。听说那里是年轻人的购物天堂。

很喜欢mama送的衬衫

本来想去那里的，却找不到所以就算了。
一个人旅行就是走到哪就到哪。
没有地图，没有目的地，没有目标。
何尝不是一种体验。就这一次，我随意。
下次会好好计划要去的地方。

很喜欢这家店，让人感觉很舒服。有种进入童话世界的感觉。

也趁机去了两间寺庙：
东乡神社

明治神宫

那里的东西真是形形色色。时装也非常潮流虽然有些过分夸张。
但可以感觉到强烈的青春气息。也有很多高中生在那里徘徊。
看着他们就觉得他们很年轻。

原宿给了我很多的惊喜。有机会还想再来，再游东京，再游日本。

离开日本前的晚餐，典型的日本餐：便当配绿茶

键盘打到最后已经不再写那么多而是以照片取代文字。

起飞的时间到了，也为我四个月的假期拉开了序幕。可是，这也许是我假期里最后的旅行了。

2011/05/26

The journey to Japan 7

2011-08-04T06:12:00.000-07:00

和他们告别后的第二天早上5：30，我到达东京车站。

把巴士票兑换成现金后就去池袋的sakura酒店。还好事先把地图打印出来才没有迷路很顺利来到酒店，可是却要等到三点才能进房。
其实有点累了，在巴士也没睡好。也没房进就决定先去秋叶原逛逛吧。
到那里是才早上九点，很多店都没开。只看到很多宅男在某间店大排长龙。
吃了早餐就到处走走，意外的觉得超闷的。
也没有那么夸张好玩的。好想回酒店休息可还没到三点，真不知怎么办时好。
正当我决定好回去时就被一位宅男搭讪了，原来他也是闷得发荒。
反正也没事做就答应和他结伴同游咯。我从名古屋来，他呆会儿就回名古屋去。
虽然我是很想和他分享看漫画的心得但他说的我有一半都听不懂。
好不容易到了下午两点，他也该走了。多亏了他也让时间过得快些，虽然不会再见了，可是还是很开心认识他。
回到酒店刚好就是三点，立刻回房睡觉！狂睡三小时后觉得精神恢复了，就决定出去走走。
在日本的时间不长了所以钱也不必担心了就放心的买。

那本杂志的附送品实在太可爱了，就狠心买下了。

刚买回来稍微试了一下却故障了,把我给吓坏了。立刻回到店里想说兑现，竟然关了。
才晚上八点多哦。没办法了只好等我明早了，多少有些担心毕竟明晚就回马来西亚了。

当晚的晚餐
吃饱后就洗个澡，也习惯了日本式的洗澡方式。
房间是宿舍式的，有三张双层床。其他客人也在所以不好意思制作噪音，感觉行动都很不自在。
一晚才¥2100。房间也很干净，设备也很齐全，厨房也可以随意使用。

2011/05/25

The journey to Japan 6

2011-08-04T05:14:00.000-07:00

由于大家都要上班上学所以mama建议我和她一起去上班。
我是很乐意，想知道mama的工作情况。
可是papa说他今天休假还开玩笑说什么经济不景气的。
Tomo也翘课，最后连mama也没去工作。
最后一天还可以和大家一起，真的很感动，只可惜yumi要工作。
今天依然是去名古屋。名古屋市科学馆最有名的是刚建好的天文馆。
可是，就因为太有名了，今天一整天的票都卖完了！
大家都垂头丧气，很失望。还是决定进科学馆看看。

这个月的主题是鬼屋。没有很可怕可是还是被吓倒。
下午时我们肚子都饿了，没办法在走了，一定要填饱肚子才行。
我们都属于那些空肚子就没法思考的人。

这是名古屋出名的餐厅，专卖猪扒。
吃饱了就到昨天到过的商店街逛逛，那里的东西挺便宜的。
我知道mama很舍不得我所以一直想买东西送我，我只要和大家一起就很幸福了。
想到只有我们玩得那么开心，yumi一个人还得工作所以决定今晚吃pizza。
上楼把东西收收，本来以为把那一袋的手信送完就比较轻松，没想到会收到那么多东西，比来的时候更多。
吃完pizza，mama还做了凉面。刚好risa和nao也来了。很开心他们来替我送行。

第一次玩wii，好玩又好笑。

过后我们就开始研究monopoly。说来惭愧，我竟然没玩过。这种感觉就像yumi告诉我原来kopi糖也有牛奶掺咖啡口味的。
最后还让她给我一颗试试。说真的，第一次看到这种口味的。
开心的时刻很快就过去了，等待我们的是分离以及下一次相遇。分离很难受，但那正是我们曾经一起的证明。
我不会忘记这一次的旅程，第一次踏出了不敢跨越的第一步。原来，是那么美妙。
缘分让我们相遇，相知甚至相惜。我很感谢在人生的旅程中遇到你们。把我当成是家里的一分子，我真的很感动也很珍惜。
缘分不会到此结束。我开始倒数下一次的相遇。会有那么一天在同一片天空下，开怀大笑。
世界那么大，我知道在那一个角落，我找到了第二个家。谢谢你们。

2011/05/24

The journey to Japan 5

2011-08-04T04:55:00.000-07:00

昨晚睡之前，mama问我是否在碧南市再呆多一天。
一个人在东京她会担心，而且我想她也不舍得我吧。
所以一到早上九点，mama就准时地打电话去问，看可以把今晚的巴士票换成明晚。
虽然可以换，但我觉得好像给大家添麻烦了，多不好意思。

一整晚没睡，眼睛快睁不开了。今天yumi拿到假期了，所以和她的朋友takumi一起去名古屋逛逛。
我真的很不争气，太累了一有机会在车上就直接睡着了，哪怕只有十分钟的路程。
超丢脸的，一定给他们留下不好的影响。
Takumi还没来时，mama带我去爺ちゃん的店里，还到他的家看看。爺ちゃん的家很大，大概有十间房吧，一个人住那么大的房子一定很寂寞吧。
我答应他，下次再来时要住那间粉红色的房间。这天是我最后一次见到他。

早晨五点多，才发现原来家前面有个公园。下次一定要去

名古屋城（nagoya castle）

这是拍大头贴附送的，可想而知竞争真的很大。
最令我吓一跳的是那里的杂志，现在才五月可是杂志已经出到七月的。
每一本都会附送各式各样的东西。

很喜欢yumi送的这个小熊环保袋^^

交换礼物时间，全部都是猫猫。

晚餐很丰盛而且很好吃！！！好想再吃~~~

一整天都下雨，天气有点冷。我的内心却无比温暖。大家在一起吃饭，好像一家人一样。

明天晚上就要离开这个家了，不知何时还能见面。但我相信，会有重逢的一天。
在那之前，我会努力的。再次见面时，我会是更好的我。

2010/05/23

The journey to Japan 4

2011-08-04T04:43:00.000-07:00

Yumi今天请到假了所以可以陪我。Tomo也把大学的课翘掉了。
不好意思可是很开心因为又能一起玩了。玩归玩，回东京的车票还是早点解决比较好。
之前Yumi问我是否在她家呆到星期一而我也没意见，所以就买了星期一晚上的巴士票。
那么快就离开了，好不舍得。还想再和他们一起，一想到在东京一个人就很无聊，真任性啊。

Risa去打工之前来找我们，要沏茶让我们试试。
茶具都放在竹做的小篮子里，risa提着来时的样子很可爱。Risa在大学时加入了茶道，和我真是不太一样。
看着她用专业的手法沏茶，虽然有些步骤忘了，但还是很了不起。

出门时下起绵绵细雨，感觉不舒服因为裤袜都湿了。首先我们去道场找yumi的中学同学-aya。

那个小男生很搞笑。临走前，其他人要他和我道别可是他怎么都不愿意说Sayonara因为可能都没机会再见了。
他只是很含糊的说了“jaa na”。这感觉很微妙，有点感动

Aya的妹妹很可爱，很惹人疼爱。
刚到时发现原来幼稚园生都是带那样黄色的帽子，像樱桃小丸子，可爱极了。（笑）

午餐就到nao家开的餐厅吃东西。我还不知道原来nao家也是开餐厅的而且竟然和jiichan的店一样名字。
原来nao的爸爸和jiichan是兄弟。他们的料理一样好吃。还让他们请客，真不好意思。

日本人拍照几乎都是peace手势。。。

过后就大家一起去Jusco逛逛，然后第一次尝试了大头贴（purikura）。
技术真是先进，拍出来的超可爱的，可是我的眼睛大得有点吓人就是了。

晚上到yumi社长家开BBQ派对。因为正好有马来西亚人来日本。时间好巧，而且竟然还是交换到社长家。
有种不可思议的感觉，不知该怎么说。。。

回家前去探tomo的班，还有十分钟就下班了。

2011/05/22

The journey to Japan 3

2011-08-04T04:20:00.000-07:00

星期六。Papa今天休息，所以由他带我。
Papa是个腼腆的人，刚开始也没能和他说到些什么。
今天我们四个人：知世，她的朋友risa，我和papa去百川村和高山观光。
Risa很可爱，就像典型的日本女生，而且也学过一些中国话和印度尼西亚话。感觉很情切呢~
昨天终于可以好好的睡上一觉了，所以精神饱满的。
从碧南市出发到目的地需要三小时。那里的风景很漂亮，天气也很好。

这就是那里最出名的建筑物：合掌屋因为屋顶好像合掌一样。冬天时雪会积在屋顶上，一片白茫茫地，很漂亮。
好想看啊~

日本最漂亮的村庄？我和知世看到时都不约而同地笑了。

Risa。Tomoyo。Papa

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从上面看下来的风景真是美呆了。还可以看到富士山呢。就算现在是春天，但富士山山顶一年四季是冬天。

Yumiko和mama没来真是可惜。

当地的名产：さるぼぼ(Sarubobo)

午餐就吃手打的凉面。那家店菜单上竟然只有两样食物而且都是凉面，不可思议。

可是对于只吃过热乎乎的面的我来说，还真是不习惯。所以也没能把它吃完，浪费食物了

日本四处各地都可以看到专门准备的吸烟区。
人们也会很自律的不会到处乱丢垃圾，所以还挺难随地见到垃圾。
在马来西亚，只要看看周围，都是垃圾。。。

还有一样很喜欢的东西是：邮政局的标志。
之前上日语课看到时就觉得很喜欢，而且一个标志就可以代表感觉很酷！

回到家已经是晚上了，大家都在等我们开派对。
据说是章鱼烧派对（たこ焼き　パーチ）简称takopa-（タコパー），真是太开心了因为我很爱吃。
而且也不知道究竟是怎样办的。晚上来了很多人，家里好热闹。大家那么欢迎我，让我真的很感动。
从来没想过会和大家相处得那么融洽。今晚的派对更是为了欢迎我而办的。顿时感动得说不出话。

简单的几个字就充分的表达他们的心意。

草莓和樱桃都很甜很好吃。好想再吃呐~

ゆみ、りさ、私、爺ちゃん、ﾏﾏ、ﾊﾟﾊﾟ、なお、とも、はる、ともき
还帮我取名-ふみこ（fumiko）因为fumi是文的意思。还挺喜欢这名的。^^

大伙在一起热热闹闹地，就是最好的回忆。
2011/05/21

The journey to Japan 2 (下)

2011-08-04T03:11:00.000-07:00

Mama第一时间就带我到他爸爸那里吃东西。
爺ちゃん的料理实在太好吃了！
可是一个人打理店实在是太辛苦了，年纪也那么大了，有点让人担心。

爺ちゃん给我的第一印象就是个不太爱说话但却很好相处的人。
他让我想起离开很久的爷爷。有种遗忘很久的亲切感。

吃饱后，就带我到碧南市走走。过后就回家了。

当时许了一些愿望，但已经不记得许了什么了。

我很喜欢肥子家，让我感觉很温馨。

Mama喜欢园艺，把庭院打理得很漂亮。

距离裕美子下班还有些时间，放下行李就和知世一起去逛书店了。日本书店对于腐女子的我来说，就像天堂。
那里有我喜爱的漫画，当然也包括难以启齿的BL。日本物价的确搞得有点吓人，大概是马来西亚的三到四倍吧！
对于穷学生的我，只能看不能买。T。T
晚上我们就到附近的寿司店用餐。听说这里的旋转寿司很便宜又好吃，所以都有好多人。
还得排队拿号码。第一次尝试了纳豆，怎么说呢~就像让他们吃榴莲一样，很臭！

在车上时，他们问是否去过澡堂，笑着说大家都脱光光的一起洗澡。
听了都觉得有点恐怖，怎么在大庭广众之下脱光光呢？
以为他们只是开玩笑，怎知我们就到了澡堂。。。
每人¥700。这下终于可以体验日本的文化了。
刚进去就看到几个人裸着身子晃来晃去，吓了我一大跳。
既然都来了，也没什么好害羞的。开始时还真不习惯，遮东遮西的。
把身子洗一洗，就是漫画里常看到的洗澡方式-坐在小凳子上，从头到脚洗一遍。
然后才到浴池里泡一泡。

泡完后再来一瓶牛奶，真是恰到好处。
其实真的不必在意什么。勇敢尝试的话，可能会觉得还不错！
如果有机会，还真想再来。

泡完澡全身很舒服放松。把一天的奔波劳累都冲掉了。

行李有两袋，其中一袋全是手信但感觉还是不太够，应该再带更多。
虽然只有那么一点点，可是我搬得很要命！

2011/05/20

The journey to Japan 2（上）

2011-08-04T03:05:00.000-07:00

到达日本羽田机场时已经是晚上11点了。
也赶不晚上的巴士去名古屋。
只好在机场里等待早上的到来。
时间过得特别慢也睡不着，有些痛苦呢。
本来只打算在东京待一个星期，却没想到可以到日本拜访朋友。
之前他们都说很期待我的到来，给了我很大的鼓励和信心。因为我有个错误观念—日本人都很冷漠！
好不容易到了早上五点，monorail也开始运作了，就带着忐忑的心出发。
不知道怎么从机场去碧南市也不知道他们到底是怎样的人。
可是再怎么想也没用，总之先出发吧！

在机场问了人，告诉我得先去东京站才能答最早7点的巴士。
日本的服务员态度都非常好，有礼貌，提供的资料也很正确。
我也毫无犹豫的相信他们。如果途中错了一站，那就很难到达目的地了。
这种容易相信别人的性格，到底是好还是不好？

日本很多东西让我感到惊讶，新鲜。
其中最让我佩服就是电车的系统。
时间表里准确地记录了每一趟电车到达时间及到达下一站所需要的时间。
对日本人来说，准时是必要的。

第一站
Tokyo Monorail ¥470
羽田机场（Haneda Airport）〉〉〉浜松町（Hamamatsucho Station）
第二站
JR line 山手线是日本东京都市中心最大的铁路运输动脉。 ¥150
〉〉〉东京駅（Tokyo Station）
第三站
JR bus ¥5100
〉〉〉名古屋駅（Nagoya Station）
第四站
JR line ¥400
〉〉〉刈谷駅　(Kariya Station)
最终站
Meitetsu line
〉〉〉新川町　（Shinkawamachi Station）
Hekinan， Aichi Prefecture， Japan

经过了长途跋涉，到达新川町时，已经是下午3时了。
从昨晚抵达到现在什么都没下过肚子。好在肚子也乖乖的听话。
途中在刈谷駅时向一位女生借电话打给知世，让他们在新川町站等我。
真是太感谢那位女生和一路上协助我的人包括电车员，教我打公共电话的大叔，一起搭电车到新川町的大叔
（虽然他跟我说了一堆听不懂的日文，但是个好人还教会我一些做人处事的道理。姜还是老的辣），还有电车里看到我手指流血给我胶布的太太们。
没有他们的帮助，一定到不了。お疲れさまでした！
到了新川町站，就看到mama和知世了。一见到他们，就很热情地欢迎我，之前的担忧都消失无踪了。
我有预感，这会是一个毕生难忘的旅程。

2011/06/20

The journey to Japan 1

2011-08-04T03:01:00.000-07:00

飞机起飞三小时半，
还是睡不着。
起飞时，天气万里晴空，现在却是一片灰茫茫。

心情，平静。
我在对日本的最新时事什么都不懂的情况下，踏上了一个人的旅程。
一直都憧憬着这种一个人旅行，没想到竟然会是日本。
虽然周围的人都反对甚至无法理解为什么那么决意，是因为想改变吧，我想。
想为自己的21岁日记里记载些什么。
也许是想甩掉过去过分依赖别人的性格。这一次，是为自己改变。
踏出属于自己的第一步。
这会是一个怎样的旅途呢？

2011/05/19

2011-07-21T15:13:00.000-07:00

做事完全照着自己的步调
也不喜欢被束缚
活在自己世界的人
对于没兴趣不想知道的事
就会不闻不问，也不会尝试了解
这就是我

这样没什么不好，只是人生中缺少了求知欲
也许无意中失去了很多
所以我慢慢的在改变
一点一点地去了解一些自己以前不想去了解的事
变得更独立
更好
而不是那个一无所知，
虽然可能还是兴趣缺缺
毕竟有些时候还是很喜欢活在自我世界的那个我

2011/07/15

3 persons I met today

2011-07-21T14:59:00.000-07:00

他，是我曾经的上司。
他的价值观和年龄都和我相差甚远，很难想象我们可以那么投缘。
工作时，和他相处的时间全部加起来也不到24小时。
这样的我们竟然还保持联络。
以前的上司，现在的朋友，一点距离感也没有。
和他聊起我的近况，被他狠狠地批了一顿。
“你睇你，街又唔出，人又唔见，作么嘢？整日在屋企上网上fb，仲不系成日上！
你这叫浪费青春啊！”
青春到底怎样才不算浪费？我这样整天窝在家抱着动漫漫画难道错了吗？
我不知道，我只知道
我们彼此在各自的人生中不过存在那么少于24小时的时间，而他轻轻摸着我的头的手，很温暖。

他，是我曾经最要好的同事。为人很风趣，搞笑，最受不了他讲的笑话。
曾经我们那么要好，两年不见也没变太多
虽然说着同样的笑话
只是我们少了些亲切感，多了份尴尬
有些时候甚至接不上话。
互相作弄，偷懒，欢笑的那些岁月已经很遥远了，快记不得了。

她，是我的表姐。
其实我们很生疏，没什么在一起的记忆。
是个很体贴的女生，很会照顾人，脾气也很好。
今天就住在她家。
一起看偶像剧，聊帅哥。

今天，我遇见了三个失恋的人。应该说，我们都失恋了，在不同的时间地点。
不同的人和事，只是我们都是被留下的人。
没有惺惺相惜。
因为一段不属于自己的缘份，没什么好可惜。
我们各自说着过去，互相的安慰着你会找到更好的。
更好又是怎么说？没人在意这些，只是大家都在找可以让自己放下的理由。
但愿有那么一天，可以笑看那段曾经让你痛彻心扉辗转难眠的过去。

2010/07/12

2011-05-12T08:09:00.000-07:00

These few days are so crazy!
There are stories to tell, experiences to share, memories to keep and feelings to feel.
How I wish I can write them down before I forget it.
In low battery mode now.
I have to be fully charged before I can go for another adventure.
Life has too much to explore.
I am enjoying my life now.
Its right, life is too short to be little!
Good night world.
Charg-ing

2011/5/12
11:16pm

いつも　本気で　やろう！

2011-04-27T00:20:00.000-07:00

何も　知らなかった。
甘すぎだ！
世界は　そんな　簡単じゃない。
だけど、あきらめない！
正面から　向くつもりだ。
輝く　未来が　まってる。
＜大丈夫、進んで＞　
優しい　声が　私の頭に　響き。
そして、いくよ！

2011-04-20T04:17:00.000-07:00

不该依赖你给的温柔
没有未来的事
早点做个了结吧
纵使有千万个不舍
不要再见了

我的爱。走了

2011-04-19T01:15:00.000-07:00

在这大城小爱
纵使寂寞不痛
难免会恋另上一个人
我明白，因为我给的爱一直很安静
犯错了，就想重来
只是，我真的受伤了
所以，曾经的我走了
只能惋惜可惜不是你

6小时的巴士车程真的很无聊
把自己用音乐塞满
从以前开始，就偏爱忧伤的歌
是否个性比较阴沉
伤心的歌听起来特别有共鸣
而且都巧妙地感觉到那么一点点的关联
照着顺序听，就觉得故事理所当然的发生了

下らない話　その二

2011-03-04T03:36:00.000-08:00

最近　自分の事　嫌いに　なるちゃた。
生活も　自分の　性格も。
不幸の事バカリ、多すぎじゃないか！
誰か　わたしの悩み　聞かせて　ほしい。
でも、　無理でしょう。
ときどき、本当に　寂しくて　悲しいと　思う。

実は　日本に　行きたいだけど
今、うまくいけないだろう。
こんな　夢　叶わないかな。。。残念だ。

本当に、バカみたい。

下らない話

2011-02-24T02:12:00.000-08:00

Settled two things that troubled me for days but somehow I dont feel relieved.
I had gone through many in this few months.
Stage 1 is clear and i really hope for Stage 2.
Hope is always comes together with despair, i understand it well.
So i try no to put too much expectations on it. If i mean to get it, then i will.

Every decision we did will follow by consequences. Even we dont expect the things to turn out this way but still need to responsible for it.

傷された、本当　すみません。
そんな事が　ほしくない。
もう　そんな　面白くなで　やっかい　事は　しない！
次は　きっと　まじめな　恋を　する。
こめん。

Thalassaemia???

2011-02-22T07:24:00.000-08:00

Doctor, u must be kidding me. There is nothing with neither me nor my blood.
I did a blood test few days ago. I was so confident with my health until i got my blood test result. What is happening now?
Anyway, thanks for not writing it into my medical report.

Hang in there

2011-02-20T22:39:00.000-08:00

On the verge of breaking down...
I feel so lost and despair.
Hope is given then take it back in the next second.
I am in a cycle of anticipating and disappointing, tired.

Hope for a gentle voice to tell me, " hang in there as you are almost there."
Give me strength to move on.
Should I believe that the effort i put will soon be paid off ?
Even it seems unlikely to achieve. Is that any point of working on a impossible task?

爱。否

2011-02-17T00:13:00.000-08:00

爱上一个人，是否只需一瞬间？
不管相识多久，感情多好
只需那么一刻对上了，哪怕只是一个眼神或笑容
你确实是爱上

你爱上的，就是浮现在你脑海里-
那个他/她

爱上了，我会奋不顾身
我不怕遍体鳞伤，不顾旁人眼光
青春，就要这样挥霍

“小城大事”，最近爱上的歌
音乐飘着浓浓的哀愁，
心灵得到了暂时解脱

记忆会变得如此疼痛，因为它也有生命

2011-02-15T03:56:00.000-08:00

再好的人都会失去，再美的梦都会苏醒

记忆会变得如此疼痛，因为它也有生命。——《伊旬园》

看完了，心也凉了

心中没有太多想法

放空

2011-01-21T20:27:00.001-08:00

残る時間

できる事

一所懸命やる

悔しいものは

いやだ

The last page of 2010

2010-12-31T07:17:00.002-08:00

Well, the hell semester begins.
As expected, the assignments start pilling up from first week.
I have a worry that i might not be able to go through this semester so easily...
But this is life... It wont be smooth all the way and this is the chance to examine my determination as a university student.
I havent mentally prepared for it but, i will.

Its 31 Dec, the last day of 2010. Time passes and there are many things yet to do. This is not an easy year for me... A lot of things happened, I may grow up a little by little too. I cant predict what is going on next, so the only I can do for the moment is do my best for now.

A new start for a new year. There are wishes to grant, dreams to do, tasks to complete, challenge to overcome... I wish this is a good year for me.

新しい年始まるんだ。やる事は　いっぱい。
何もう　できなかったは　いや。そして、いっしょけんめ活きているつもりだ。
その　気持ち　持ってなら、必ず　夢を　かなえる。
がんばって！

还能孩子多久

2010-12-05T04:14:00.001-08:00

上回在书展买了两本小说，一直搁在一旁，没心去看。
心想，当初想买的心情不就因为想看吗。
就随手伶了本来看。
书，想看却总是提不起劲，可当你开始翻阅它，就会被里面的文字吸引而停不下来，
抱着非把它看完不可的决心。书对于我而言，就是这样。

《还能孩子多久》也许我不再是孩子，才会被书名给吸引。
可我觉得我比里面的人物还孩子，内心也没那么复杂。
生活也没有那些那么戏剧化的经验。
如果是孩子，心里有什么话就会直说，不会憋在心里，造成那么多不必要的误会。
我不太喜欢故事里的女主角。不坦白，不把内心的话讲出来别人怎么知道。
可能她的性格跟我很像吧，尤其是倔强这一点，所以失去很多。也许我是讨厌自己的这一点才不喜欢她。

她的名字，我喜欢— 七月。七月让人感觉很寂寞，忧郁，带有淡淡的哀伤。
看完这本，读后感—可惜。
可惜她不努力抓住自己的爱情，明明是两情相悦，为什么不能在一起？
看到父亲和别的女人在一起，也不问清楚就断定是外遇，一味的狠着她父亲。
等到父亲因走私贩毒背叛死刑才知道一切是误会，赫然发现自己多爱他。
当中有太多可惜，让我觉得活在这世上真不容易。
就因为有这些遗憾，才会去珍惜拥有的东西吧。

就说我太孩子，才无法理解那些可惜有什么意义。
那我到底还能孩子多久？

2010-11-08T04:11:00.001-08:00

In a very down mood now.
I finally realised sometimes word is the sharpest weapon even though she/he didnt say it purposely...
But still,it hurts...
When u realised the dream is not more sweet, its time to wake up
Its nothing.
Wont cry for it.

5 April 10

2010-04-05T08:54:00.000-07:00

Life is a process of learning. I am always thinking how to be a better human.

Improving to be a better human is a process closer to perfection. Because no one is perfect. But at least to become better and better.

I really should not be that busy body. Why i should give my own opinion on other relationship and get irritated? I really dont understand. I dont have the right to pry in other's complicated relationship . Keep giving my comments and advices on how to solve the problem, who is going to be blame and analysing the whole case with my "objective" perspect.

NO!!!That is none of ur bussiness. Pls dun be too helpful. Dont ever think that u can solve the problem or change the current situation. There is no need for me to be the middle person and give my excessive concern about that matter.
No one is requesting me to do those unnessary things,giving my stupid opinion, spreading the rumours.

Stop being foolish!!! Its not like I really dont concern about this matter.They are my friends. I really dont wish to see them suffer and torture themselve in that way. But, there is nothing I can do. They need to solve it by themselves. What I can do is praying for them, hoping things will geting better. I am ready to help if they need me.

Think be4 u speak sth because there are many times trouble comes from my mouth. I have no idea of what is the consequnces when I speak something which is offensive and brainless.Its better to hold my tongue be4 I say sth regretful. Bear in mind, never try to be busy body and pry in other's bussiness. Save myself from trouble and be neutral all the time.

Fireproof

2010-04-03T08:48:00.000-07:00

This movie does inspire me a lots.
Although it is a American Christian drama film, but the messages that want to deliver is the same for all religion.
The story is about a married couple which their relationship suffer to the point of that the wife wants to divorce.
Eventually the husband was able to save their marriage with his LOVE
The whole movie is very touching and inspiring.
It thought me what is love.
Love is not a feeling, but a decision.
Love is selfless and sacrificial.
I guess I know how to love someone more truly and completely.

Never leave ur partner behind

First post of April

2010-04-02T21:00:00.000-07:00

如果早知道幸福的尽头是心痛，
当初会不会不顾一切去爱呢？
当初有多幸福，梦醒后，
就会有多痛

強くなりたい

2010-03-23T06:58:00.000-07:00

看着和昨天一样的景色
走着和昨天一样的道路
做着和昨天一样的事情
但我的世界却完全改变了
一定再也不能那样笑了
到昨天为止的我
已经找不到了

不断地失去
剩下的只有一点点
已经想不起从前的我

もう　あの日に　帰りたいなんて　言いません
今の自分を　認めて　生きています
我已经不说什么想回到从前之类的话了
认清现在的自己好好活下去

遠くて　涙の尽きた場所に
奔向远方那里不再有泪

28 Jan 2010- Thurs

2010-01-30T21:17:00.001-08:00

Due to the university election, the tutorial class had been cancelled.
Cheer for the election because I was free from presentation for today.
Actually I don’t have any idea what is going on or what about this election.
Only those who involve in this election will behavior aggressively, but I am not interested in all.
The election took place in two venues: konkos and each desasiswa which you are staying.
I just simply went there and voted for them. The whole process only took me 5 minutes.
Went upstairs the café, check for my Ic number and chose 6 candidates over 11.
I don’t know who are they and I just ticked them according to my intuition.
I chose 4 chinese, 1 indian girl and 1 malay girl.
There is a saying ‘don’t judge ppl by discovery’, but this saying cannot be applied under this situation.
Since I don’t know those candidates, I decided to choose them according to their physical appearances.
Of course I will choose the one who has an appealing look. Hiak hiak

This was the second invitation by my ex-roommate to play badminton.
Its ill-manner to reject her all the time even I’m free and nothing to do.
I’m just cant gain enthusiast to get myself involve in all those activities and events.
This was my first time been there, the badminton court!
I was quite worry because it had been long time I don’t exercise.
That thinking disappeared when I was there.
I was very enjoyed and pleased.
All my tension and pressure was revealed.
After that, I keep asking her when we are going to play again.
What a surprise! Really need to thank her for invited me.

During night, I called home.
I was informed by my younger sister that my brother had been hospitalized because of dengue fever.
He was so stubborn and refused to stay at hospital. He insisted to discharge from hospital.
Shortly after discharge, he felt no well thus sent to hospital again.
My parents never told me what had happened in my family.
I know they don’t want me to get worry but I realize I can’t do anything for them when something happened.
Hopefully my brother can get well soon.
How much I hope I will be there, to ease their worries and burdens.
Family’s smile will always carved in my heart, they are my prime motivator to go ahead.

20 Jan 2010 -Wed

2010-01-30T21:11:00.000-08:00

Goodness! I still can’t get used of the hectic schedule of Wednesday.
Needless to say, it must be very tired and withdraw all my energy.
After all those classes, it was already night when I reached dormitory.
Took a bath to rejuvenate and refresh myself form the tiredness.
Shortly after the shower, need to work hard on my preparation for presentation tomorrow morning.
All of us will use the same book that we chosen throughout this semester for all our presentation or assignment.
This is very essential to make sure that u have chosen an interesting, nice book but the most important is you are interested in that book.
We need to find the both English and Malay versions.
The book that I found is origin written in Japanese by Fumiko Enchi.
But it doesn’t matter because the translation of English version is very good (my personal opinion).
I managed to finish it since I seldom read books. A big applause for myself!
This was a large improvement, a step nearer to be a translator.
To be capable known as translator, I need to read more and more to widen my knowledge.
I know that I’m a babe in arms, poor general knowledge and live in my little world.

I was very glad that I had chosen such a fine and delicate novel named The Waiting Years.
It is a prize-winning novel and the author is a woman of great intelligence and extraordinary sensitive.
As I flipped through the pages of final chapter, tears started to well up and flow freely.
The character of Tomo has given me a great impression. She spent her lifetime for the sake of her husband Shirakawa and her children.
Tomo tried to refrain herself to show her hatred toward husband even he betray her for so many times.
She still show her loyalty toward her husband and try the best to complete the tasks that given by him.
It was so ironic for a mistress to find a concubine, Suga for her own husband. She even promised Suga’s mother to protect and take care of Suga in case the master would fed up one day.
It did hurt her since her husband had taken possession of Suga and never step into her room since then.
The strict behavior toward her daughter in order to protect her only drew their distant apart.
She tried so hard to keep the abnormal relationship between daughter-in-law and her husband a secret to remain the reputation of Shirakawa’s family.
She is the one who always on the Shirakawa’s side. Even in the door of death, she hoped for no funeral.
She is such a noble and tough woman.
This novel is able to touch me from the deepest feeling in my heart.
By all means, good luck for my presentation tomorrow.

13 Jan 2010

2010-01-28T21:04:00.000-08:00

Alert: Wednesday’s Blue !!!
8 hours classes are totally tired and exhausted.
I started to feel sleepy during class. My eyes cant hardly against the gravitation force and drag me into sleeping mode.
Although I tried hard to keep awake, but to no avail.
I have no idea whether I can get used of this busy Wednesday’s schedule.
It still manageable if there was no presentation for the next day.
Tutorial class on 8am so I need to gain enough sleep or else I my brain didn’t work on the early morning.
Since there is presentation then I need to do preparation until late night.
It would take more time since I did all the printing and photocopying.
It’s hard for me to gain enough rest and not to worry about my performance.
The clock stuck at 3 am, I realized that I must go to bed.
I promised my myself I won’t repeat the same mistake as last sem.
I must take out my courage and confidence to perform my best.
Opportunity doesn’t knock twice, so I must grab all the chance in order to show my responsibility as a student.

It would be so great and wonderful if it here possible to go through life without making a single mistake.
But, there is not such path.
Losing the way, trapping in trouble, making mistake little by little, walking on step at a time, this is the only way.

2009-12-13T08:10:00.000-08:00

A semester passed in a blink of eyes.

My first sem was very relaxed and degenerate. My dairy routine remained almost the same throughout the whole sem. Everyday sleep until it’s late in the morning and watching animate for the whole day. Although it has not much different compare with my form 6’s life, but this phenomenon has deteriorated since there is no more tuition class to attend. Form 6’s study schedule was pretty tight and full of tuition classes. I wonder how I passed my day when there were 3 or 4 tuition classes came consecutively. It must be full of complaints and unwillingness. However, 7 years of tuition’s life came to end eventually. And I realized that I be used with this life. That was easier for me because there was teachers will guide me along the way and no need to do revision after class. I really miss my good old days. Now age has set in. The pieces of memory are flashing back like a movie and lingering around me. Most of us are furthering our study in university or college, some of us are studying abroad. We are on the path to pursuit of dreams and goals of life.

The most apparent change that took place is the way of study. There is no way to wait for lecturer to feed us. I lost my way and I have no idea what i'm going to do next without the guide of teachers. My course do not have any textbook or specific study matter. As a uni student, I have to search information and notes by my own. The only way to survive and passed all the exam with flying colour is to change the attitude of study and to be independent. In fact, I failed to do that! That’s y I can hardly survive and face with a lots of hardship.”I will be more hardworking and this wont be happened for the next sem,” I would say to myself once I finished one paper. Was this really helped? I strongly believe that a fox may grow gray, but never good. Yes, this is exactly proved on me. Despite that, I might feel better by flatter myself I will become better for the coming sem.^^

14-15/7/09

2009-07-24T04:22:00.001-07:00

My first tutorial class will be start from today.But,I didn’t attend my first tutorial class,how dare I am!I didn’t go with my coursemate because I need to settle my ptptn stuff.I didn’t expect that I cant find the class!I was so panic n almost cried!Run without any direction n keep asking the wrong person!Pls dun show me the wrong direction.Just told me that u dunno where is the place!Dun simply show a direction because I will rush like a fool!After that I gave up after I search the place for over 40 mins.The class almost end n there is no meaning for me to attend the class .

The biggest mistake I made was I shouldn’t ask my roommate to sign attendance for me!Lecturer thought that I dun wan to attend the class purposely n quite provoked about it.Even I apologised to her next day, she seem like didn’t care at all but I noe she had an unpleasant impression toward me.This sem will be an uneasy sem for me.But still need to be positive n smile through adversity!

NEW CHAPTER OF LIFE

2009-07-24T04:04:00.001-07:00

Welcome to my room...

The torturing orientation week was finally came to the end. Everything went back to normal…Shuttles start to operate, at least no need to walk for a long distance.Yet, I need to take 2 types of bus :bus RST that is only for those who stay at new dorms n bus around the school area. The bus service is quite convenient because it comes frequent that we no need to wait too long.The condition of my room also quite satify,the furnishes are quite new n complete, the view from my room is very nice, wash room also clean n near…

view from my room,cool

The only thing I need to complain is the wireless connection!!!I think it wont be improved , better I dun put any expectection toward it. Just think about how I passed my first year without internet in my room. It is so unconvinient n troublesome. Need to bring along laptop everytime if I wan to online at café or library. Besides, no privacy online at those places. How I passed my weekends without internet because I didn’t go anywhere during weekend n all my entertaiment is cut off.(=.=lll)

However, life still need to go on. A short briefing about my course:Bachelor of Art(Translation n Interpretation) or we named it as BATI which is under the School of Humanites. Others courses that under this school are Ilmu Kemanusiaan n English(ELLS). This sem I need to collect 16 to 19 unit hence I decided to take minor this sem. Actually this is a sudden decision. I took mass com as my minor at first but after attended the first class I found that I am not suitable for this course.Then I changed my minor to Japanese, this time I wont change my mind. I was given this second chance to choose my minor, I should appreciate it. Once I decided to take it ,I will complete it!!! I didn’t involve in any ko-k this sem due to my unit for this sem full edi. If I could manage my minor , will take France as my option next sem but still too early to say about it.

Sadly,I realised that my memorise ability becum weaker n weaker.It took a long time for me to memorise 46 Hiragana…If I cant built up a strong basic then how Im going to master this languague?

There r 4 wash rooms which 2 of them for shower n the others for answering the natural call...The wash room r enough because 4 rooms share it.So no need to rush for the rest room. My room was messed up within a week@@
Here is the place for us to hang out clothes but after seniors moved in,there are no space for me to hang my clothes
Yet,i am able to think a good idea to hang my clothes...HAha

ORIENTATION WEEK

2009-07-24T03:50:00.000-07:00

I totally agreed that orientation week is the toughest days in university.My dorm is so far from the main hall that we need to gather at there everyday for the boring endless talk or seminar.Far is not the main problem,the ridiculous part is how can no shuttle service during the whole week?!!Thats mean we need to walk to the destiantion no matter how far.OMG!!!

I thought very lucky n blessed to be choosen to stay at new dorm:Restu.But,act it really not so lucky.I had been walked for 40 mins from my dorm to my school(School of Humanities).I was sweating n the sun was burning my skin at the afternoon.My senior was surprised when she knew that we walk everyday because she had been stayed at Bakti Permai during orientation week before she moved to Restu….

The worst thing is i cant online at my room.The wireless connection is super low until cant connect at all!!!How can I survive at this environment?I cant imagine my life without internet.Although im not an online addictor but I need internet very much!Cafeteria downstair is the only place that can online I guess but my lappy battery only can last for about one hour.There is no place to charge,how suffer im without internet!!!Sometimes u cant even connect at café!What a dilemma for me…

The most enjoyable of the orientation week must be the makan malam of desasiswa.We were having our dinner at DUD(dewan utama desasiswa).It is air condition n the food provided not bad too(Cant expect too much).By the end,the orientation week was not so good for me…T_T ARRRR…
Me in baju kurung...^^ The food of makan malam

Uni life

2009-07-05T21:06:00.000-07:00

Long time didnt update my blog because before that im busy about those university stuff,orientation week...I need to talk about my orientation week,seriously...but not for this post because i dun hav so much time to do that.

Its just a quick update...My current location is at USM library:Perpustakaan Hamzah Sendut 1.
Its too much to complain but at the end i still will appreciate what i having now.Yet, still need to post it out about the dilemma im suffering .New post will be released soon after i figure out how to post about it..Its not a complaining post!Heh^...^

12June(Fri)

2009-06-12T06:18:00.000-07:00

I received offer latter from USM this afternoon.Almost one week i was waiting for it.
I had been offered by the translation n interpretation course.
It need a lots of courage to change from science stream to art stream.
But i will try my best n take this as a challenge for me.
I hope this is the right choice for me.
Well-equipped to face a new environment.I am ready for it!!!

My mum n I went to Kuala Selangor to see a unit of single-storey house.
Both of us very excited n love it once we saw it
We have a great desire to own it but this wish hard to achieve
The main reason is the financial problem
My father dun hav a fixed salary n his job cannot be accepted by bank
Hence it will a tough job or nearly impossible for us to apply loan from bank
Look like our sweet dream will be broken again
HAIZzzz...

Life does go on

2009-05-21T01:41:00.000-07:00

I had been work at Redbox for about half year.
Time does fly.It passed in a jiffy.
Many things happened no matter sweet or sorrow
However,it would become a part of my memories

This was my personal locker.But,i lost my money even it is well locked.From that time,i lost confident with the security of that locker n not dare to put my important personal item it.
me in uniform~~

I moved three times in this period.
The most funny is i moved from this building to another building which is beside :Mentari court,Ridzuan n Suriamas...Its tiring to move.@@

I walked to work everyday.It need around 15 minutes.I was sweating when i reached company ,so uncomfortable.

I singing alone during off day.It was a fresh n unforgettable experience.I realised that i love singing very much!!!Although i cannot sing very well but please dun laugh at me.I sing not purposely to attend singing competition.I jus wan to release tension .Somestime,i perfer alone because i can shout as loud as i can.

i went shopping alone.It was very boring because no one can give u suggestion.I dislike shopping alone!

I went clubbing with a super nature look.This is because i know Snail dislike me to go clubbing especially not with him.I was reluctant to go at that day because i cant find a point for me to go.I dun drink alcohol,i dun smoke n i dun dance also!!!
I still thinking of my "Lung".I never forget u no matter where i am*~*

Another day i went clubbing with dressed up.This time i didnt inform Snail.This was some kind like doing something behind him,guiltiness growed deep in my heart.Sien,i should be frank toward him.

Yipee!!!

2009-05-20T06:00:00.000-07:00

Yeah!Finally i own it!!!
My LG ice cream KF 350 ,my third handphone .
First one was presented by my family while the second one was given Snail since he change his phone to N80...And now,is my present one.This is a present from Snail.Thousand of thanks to him because he fulfill my dream by owning a cute n adorable phone.

Function is not the main reason y i choose it.For me,mobile phone is just a device for me to contact with others.Its enough since it can sms n make a call.The most important is,it is PINK!!!Girls seem to be easy cheated by the material which is nice to see .^^Although it may not worth that price,i noe.I told myself i will appreciate it n take good care of it!

5 May*I want my own home!!!

2009-05-05T08:18:00.000-07:00

Finally,i backed to my home
the way to back home,too far...
i change 3 times of bus, wait n wait
from 11morning till 4 afternoon
a tiring journey
but nvm,the most important was i reached safety
my dad very worry about me to take bus alone
he called me many times n ask for my location

But then i felt very uncomfortable with my room
so many stuff n dirty
i think i need a long time to clean up my room
n throw away all the useless things
this will be easier for me to keep my room clean
hope to have my own home
i dislike to live at the rented house
however that is other house
they can take back anytime n whatever they want
then we need to move again
ARRRRR....

4 May #sorrow

2009-05-04T05:56:00.000-07:00

This was my last day...
Yet,it was not so good for me.
because my mood very bad today
with no reason
i refuse to talk to them,refuse to smile
I know this was my last i should appreciate it
but i didn't
i was too silent compare to the previous days
with the sorrow n numb expression
i dunno whats wrong with me
i wish to cry so much
but i cant find a reason to cry
i choose to stay away from them
not to say goodbye with them
even give up all the friendship we built up in this 4 months

i understand that i am easily to forget things
maybe i will forget all the moment we together soon
this is not a forgettable event but i will let it be
i might forget them so are them
here i say goodbye n good luck to them
thanks for being here in a part of my life

2may(Sun)

2009-05-03T10:12:00.000-07:00

im suffering from the skin disaster recently!!!
It seem become very serious when the days go on
i dun dare to look at it especially at abdomen
doctor advice me not to take the poisonous food
such as egg,squish,prawn and pork...
OMG!!!it need a strong determination to control myself from taking those food.
All my favorite food...
I wish to recover as soon as possible,so i will built up a strong mind n defeat this disaster!!!!
Give back my healthy skin!!!

*Tomorrow was my last day working,finally can back to my home.Home sweet home^^
I am happy n enjoy the moment together with all of u...feel reluctant to say goodbye to all of u.

29 April (wed)

2009-04-29T06:30:00.001-07:00

Im a sensitive person
If i found that u dislike me
i will stay away form u
but not try to let u like me
this is me...negative n unreasonable
i tried very hard to hold my tears at bay
yet the tears cant against gravitation force n scroll down like raining
i forced myself not to cry
20 years old me still childish
crying like a child lose her way to go back
at the end i still need to rely on others
i cant be independent
even once
i dun wan to create any trouble for others
but i cant
thats y nobody like me
when the condition against me
i jus want to run away
Im totally a loser

18 April*comprehend

2009-04-17T09:46:00.000-07:00

I was too persistent ,persist with the things that shouldn't be persistent
Money can be earned back
Is it worth to torture myself this way?
I hurt whom i love due to my persistent
My persistent,what does it mean at the end?

I should appreaciate what i having now but not persistent with something that is not longer belong to me...
Happiness is for who is content.
Im trying to understand what does it mean.
I'm sure can do it n let it go .I will be more positive n grow stronger.
Life is unfair n full of uncertainty .However,life still goes on.
So learn to smile through adversity ,i can do it!!!
Be strong,girl!

15 April*moody

2009-04-11T22:18:00.000-07:00

Im suffering from the bad luck recently...
First,i had been scold by customers few days ago...
This is a necessary for me to write this down because this would be a good experience for me...
About 2:55am,an indian customer from Room 1 went out n take the side order 3 jug beer 's bill from me...Hence i went to cashier n asked her to print the bill for him.Then he took money from the wallet n another man came n stated that he already paid for the bill...Then another man came out n shouted on me:"U cant like this,we already settle the bill,y u still printed the bill for him?"Then he shaked his head for dissapointed...After that a girl came out n asked for my name,she stated that i want to cheat their money.Hence i claimed that i jus print the resit for him n didnt mean to take money from them...

After a fews day,i received a complain letter from CRM for the extra billing...Shit!I still cant figure out what is going on!Y they can be so unreasonable n ridiculous...swt*~*

Second,i lost my handphone.I felt strange because i didnt awake by my alarm.I remember that i turned on at 8:30am but then i wake up myself at 9am...When i go out from the room,i saw the door of the balcony was open.I went back to the room n used vnnie's phone to call my number.I guess it was at one of the corner of the room...i was shocked when someone was answering my phone..OMG!!!i only realised that my phone is being stolen!!!The most important thing was y we didnt realise that someone was entering our room n take our thing .How can we dun hav awareness at all n sleep so deadly@@

Third,i went back to sing k at red box when i offday.My colleague suggested me to use her dot red card as there are 20%discount n she can collect point also.I was so happy because i sing for a whole day .After i back i became quite rich because my friends return me money n rental.I was counting the money n planning how to spend the money.The next day i went to work,the colleague came back to sing k n then she wanted her dot red card back.She asked me to give her my locker key.After i finished my work,i realised that RM350 was lost!I didnt know how does it happened.I tried not to blame or doubt of anyone.But only she opened my locker n everyone at red box also said that she cant be believed...What can i do???Am i too easy to trust ppl n dun hav any precaution toward others???I wonder y they all bully me!!!

When all these unhappy n unlucky happended on me at the same time...I really cant accept.Thus i cant control myself n cried for the whole day.Im not tough as expected,i am fragile than anyone.I forced myself not to cry but i jus cant control the tear scroll down from my eyes.Am i not deserve for happiness???i wonder...

Sun*5April

2009-04-05T23:02:00.000-07:00

I jus cant control myself to mad on her
I dunno whether it is because im period
so that im moody or i really cant bear n tolerance
her naive n innocent
Maybe i expect too much from her
Everyone is different n she is the one who is learning very slow
No matter how I shouldn't mad or angry toward her
So this is my fault...

Its time to control my temper
No matter how unsatisfied I am
I cannot show in front of them
I just need to do my part perfect
n didnt cause any inconvenient or trouble to my colleagues
Just do ur best

This will be the last month for me to stay at redbox
Im really learnt a lot of things
Glad to know them ...my lovely colleagues
They do help me a lots
Thanks

working

2009-03-31T09:35:00.001-07:00

I didn't expect that my job will be so tough
I guess im stress out this few days
having nightmare n easily provoked
Beside of answering the phone,need to entertain the customer in front
check in,write check in slip,explain expense,check for the member,manage about the member application
with one ppl ability,how can i do it all the same time
This not enough yet
They still want to burden us with Member's Day promotion
OMG@@
Need to clear about the promotion.If anything happen u need to take over the responsibility
They even will call us to test us
see whether we explain all the promotion to all of the customer no matter on the phone or the customer in front....
Everything for customer,sales n company
Who care for us???
I am very tired
Even wish to give up...
I need rest ,i dun wan to continue anymore...
Who can save me???

Tue,31 march,sunny

2009-03-31T07:51:00.000-07:00

For my lovely family
I need to admit that i m not a good sister n daughter
I have not contribution toward my family
they all love me
Im just like the queen of my family
endure my temper,tolerant with me
I just realise that i seldom give a call to my family
although i promise that i will call them
Even didnt give them a present or create any surprise for them
I cant offer them for a trip or bring them to shopping

I will try my best to be a good sister n daughter
To take my responsibility
I should learn to spend my time with my family
However,they are my closest member
Blood is thicker than water

SAT, 21march 2009,Sunny day

2009-03-20T23:29:00.000-07:00

I always emphasis that love is just a part of our life
But i can feel that love is sweet when u feel the deep concern n caring from him
Yet it is completely hurt once the feeling of love far away from u
Maybe ur right love is not jus like saying i love u u love me
Since when our point of view becum so much different?
Ur so far away from me
Not jus physically distant but the distant of heart slowly increase
I cant follow ur pace because im still stay at the beginning
"Don't think too much"this is what u always told me
Ya...dun think to much
And dun expect anything from other
NO more tear,No more expectation,n no more LOVE
As a conclusion...LOVE IS TIRING
I might not suitable to fall in love ...
I might be friend with LONELY
I need to apply this on myself:love is just a part of life
Let it go
It need courage to forget
Forget everything about us no matter sweet or bitter memories
I will be OK

peaceful life

2009-03-19T23:55:00.000-07:00

After struggle in this social for about 3 months
i guess i should learn how to manage my temper
Rmb,im not perfect,im not lovely or even cute
But im the unique...
I can decide my way n made my own decision
I need to be strong
Ignore the point of view of others because their r not going to affect my entire life
Just be yourself
I like singing very much n i would like to improve it vey much
I also would like to improve my poor english...
So i will update my blog using english no matter how!!!
U can made it!!!Girl...

nothing will last forever except love

2009-02-16T08:02:00.000-08:00

难得有两天的offday,当然会到温暖的家好好休息，充充电。这些日子都没好好休息。
晚上整理东西的时候，无意中想起了一个遗忘的盒子，是我考完试后整理过。
是我和他的回忆。。。装在大同月饼的盒子里
一下子许多被遗忘的回忆涌了出来，回想起了我们过去的一切。
我发现很多痛心的，遗憾的，不愉快地我已一一忘记，剩下谈谈的记忆。
原来我只把快乐的过去整齐的放在盒子里。

情人节，他总不在我身边。
我也习惯了。有什么关系，反正我们每天都是情人节。
去年和前年的礼物————手表
永恒的像征。。。
手表依赖电池。电池没了，手表也不再操作。
只是时间却没有因为这样而停留过
爱也许没有永恒，但却可以记得它曾停留在那美丽的时刻

这是他熬夜为我赶出这份“计划书”。里面简单的几句让我很感动，那已是最好的礼物了。

这是我们的留言书，我们把想和对方说的话都用文字表达。这样何尝不是另一种相处的方式？没有秘密没有约束。。。Truth is beautiful without doubt...but so are lies

我不会表达，也不懂浪漫，不会制造惊喜
我太粗心，常常没考虑到你的感受
我太自私，不够关心你的一切
我太大意，没发觉你也会失落，茫然，寂寞

我希望自己是甜蜜的负担，不让他爱得太累
我的爱也许现实但爱情并不是人家说的"爱情饮水饱"那么简单

他，的确对我很好。
可以感觉得到是打从心里的对我好
总把最好的留给我
用心为我解决任何问题
确保我不被烦恼缠绕
努力兑现对我许下的承诺
真心的关心我爱护我
包容我的蛮横无理
一直没说出口的，谢谢你
To u,whom
I MISS THE MOST...
you share all my joys n sorrow
My other half...

老post

2009-01-25T11:27:00.000-08:00

虽然过了很久但还是觉得总得把东西写完才可以
这是续langkawi篇的，终于心血来潮地把它写完，感觉轻松了，哈哈！！！

用了早餐,check out后就去坐缆车。从来多没想过那么好玩，是整个旅程最难忘的回忆。那里的风景真得太美了。新鲜的空气，旷阔的天空，还有正在飞翔的梦想。

我也好想飞向属于我自己的天空。

我遥望未来，看到无边无际的天空。未来就掌握在我手里。

第二天的酒店还好没让我们失望。膳食也慢慢改变了，这个世界就是那么欺善怕恶！去海岛出海绕道是必定的事。每个海岛风景都差不多，一样兴奋的心情，甚至是和一样的人去，但毕竟不是那天我们大伙一起看过的海景。

我们真得很像水灾的难民一样，惨！什么气质都没有了。。。

渐渐离去的背影就是我们向langkawi告别的时候

上回说漏了我们和美玲庆祝生日的小插曲。其实也真的事非常小的插曲因为他们差不多唱晚了生日歌我们才进去顺便拍几张照而已。

过了那么久才update，很多细节多慢慢忘记了。记性不好如果发生后不立刻记下来很快就会忘记。也没关系，曾被忘记的回忆也许会在某个睡不着的夜晚记起。会心一笑，原来我曾做过那么疯狂的事。青春就是一张没有限额的信用卡，可以尽情挥霍。青春，多么美好。。。

青春不应流白，要好好珍惜。乘年轻，想闯就闯吧！别怕受伤因为伤口总会愈合，而我更有了前进的力量！！！

abandon blog

2008-12-24T00:24:00.000-08:00

long time didnt update my blog edi
omg,im jus too busy n tired
n no time to update....
even the langkawi post also havent finished yet...
many stories to go through
erm...new post will be coming soon...

Langkawi trip

2008-12-13T18:02:00.000-08:00

终于考完试了，最让人期待的就是毕业旅行.在家窝了5，6天，现在就要往Langkawi。（其实这几天是忙得透不过气来T.T)...心情当然是十分兴奋因为我没去过Penang和Langkawi,真是孤陋寡闻！出发前在家追了法政先锋，可是最后一集还是来不及看完。巴士大概晚上十一点45分开车，明天4，5点早上就能到了。这个时候当然是把握时间睡觉啦！

怎知到了升旗山后居然没的上山，因为维修工作正在进行。没办法了，就朝下一个目的地泰佛庙和缅甸寺参观。第一餐的食物真是让我们咋舌，全部都是便宜的食物。煎蛋，以为随便放几条葱和大葱就可以让食物看起来更贵吗？不只便宜，还很难吃，大家都非常不满。紫菜汤，还真是那几条紫菜，就没什么东西了。。。非洲鱼，天啊！根本就是土鱼，难吃到极点。导游还说在中国那鱼是级品呢！可是这里并不是中国啊,uncle...还说什么出来旅行不求吃得好，只求吃得饱。我的天啊，这是哪门子的说法呀？过后我们就往极乐寺前进。参观完后就搭轮船去langkawi了。基本上我们逗留在槟城的时间只有半天。他们说槟城晚上有许多美食吃，惟有等下一次的机会吧！

只要诚心祈祷，愿望就会实现。不管停留在那一尊佛像，我许的愿都是一样的。
三大美女？还是三大肥婆？我比较喜欢第二个说法，比较符合我们的形象。哈哈！！！
在极乐寺的时候，乘文璇在拜拜，就偷了她的帽子和围巾来玩玩。。。

到了langkawi我们就先到"hotel"check in因为导游答应我们是住酒店的。怎知竟然是resort,其实不要紧的因为看起来还蛮特别的。拿了钥匙开了房门。。。我们都傻了!这样的房间怎么可以租给人呢？太过分了！真把我们给气炸了！冷气的盖子就丢在床上，电线还短了就代表没冷气吹了。开门后还有一阵霉味。枕头也乱丢在地上，我们是不是走错store room了？受不了了，就带着满身的怨气找导游算账。

我们打算来个无声抗议对导游施压。可别看小我们的能力，导游可是被我们吓得不敢走出房门。其实我们也不是无理取闹，只是想要个合理的解释。出来旅游，谁也不想把局面弄得那么疆的。最后导游和我们调换房间，问题才解决。晚餐也立刻变得比较好吃。。。无声抗议，果然有效！！！接下来就没有活动了。我们就个各自精彩咯。喝了一点酒就有点飘飘的，我果然是不能喝酒的。以后都不喝了！
这是璇的风车的遗照，因为才买不到24小时就不见了。应该是太美了所以北头，还是她自己笨笨得不知丢在那里 @@

时间的问题只能打到这里，等下又要赶去sunway...不知何时才能上网，可是我会找机会上网的！

Part 2

2008-12-09T21:39:00.000-08:00

另一边，国王为了维护国家所有人民的和平，决定把公主许配给邻国王子。为了保护国土，公主能做的不是持剑杀敌。半夜，公主跑到士兵宿舍通知夫尔。夫尔跪在公主面前，拿出一枚绿宝石戒指。“这是奶奶送给我的，她要我将来送给我心爱的人，就让这枚戒指代替我陪伴在你的身边。明天我们骑士将会派到边疆去作战。祝福公主和王子能得到幸福。”在柔和的月光下，公主显得十分凄美。

翌日，夫尔便朝边疆出发了。公主和王子在皇宫殿里举行婚礼。就在这个时候，火山爆发了。皇宫顿时变成废墟。公主手里握着夫尔送的戒指。“公主！”此刻本菜听到夫尔的叫喊，冲上前抱着夫尔。在火雨中，公主和夫尔一起逃走。随着宫殿各处不断崩塌，他们都知道再也无处可逃。接着，山上不断的喷出火来，埋覆了整片大地。公主所爱的人，父皇,母后，奶奶，夫尔还有亲爱的子民，随着这片美丽的大地，一起沉入海底。。。。。。

“早绿，你醒了？刚才地震时你昏倒了。幸好刚才那个少年把你救走。”少年靠在门匾，接着走到早绿的面前，把戒指套在早绿的受伤。经过了无数的轮回转生，跨越了时空，现在终于在这里展开恋人们的传说。。。。。。

一枚戒指 Part 1

2008-12-06T07:18:00.000-08:00

中五那年，我印象最深刻的一篇作文就是“一枚戒指”。

这篇是唯一不是正式的作文，

不需要根据特定的格式，文法

随心所欲的写一个故事

一枚戒指

早绿做了一个梦，一个温馨的梦。

半年前，考古学家发现了古代的遗迹，就是传说中一夜沉入海底的布迪亚大陆。虽然早绿对历史向来不敏感，但不知为何对这则新闻却感兴趣。于是她决定和好友前往展览会场艺坛究竟。不知怎么了，早绿对那些古迹有种亲切的感觉。展览会的角落，有个少年像失了魂似的，一直站在古老的绿宝石面前，动也不动。突然脑海像

闪过什么似的。“啊！地震！”那少年冲过来护着早绿。在那一瞬间，眼前仿佛出现了一道绿色的光芒。。。。。。

那时在早绿诞生之前，好几千年前的远古时候。当时的早绿。“啊！救命啊！”马突然不受控制的乱跑。幸好有个人跳上马背上把马停下来。“已经没事了，你居然穿这洋服骑马。”“大胆狂徒！”话毕，一巴掌印在那个人的脸上。“您没事吧？公主？”侍卫紧张得跑了过来。“没事，谢谢你救了我，刚才居然打了你一巴掌。”临走前，公主转过来向他道谢。

她的名字是本菜，是布迪亚国家的公主。她最爱听宫中退休的老奶奶说故事。她中露出温柔的笑容，向本菜树说他以前浪漫的爱情故事。她也好像像老奶奶一样弹唱很棒的恋爱。门外传来一阵声音，“我回来了奶奶，因为我上次救了泼辣的公主，所以得到特别奖赏和休假。”一个少年走了进来，手里拿着一袋金钱。原来是上次救了本菜的人。他是奶奶常提到的孙子，夫尔。夫尔为了保护这个国土而成为士兵。

邻国以强大的武力征服了不少国家，连布迪亚这个小国家也受到威胁。现在国家的状况相当危险，所以本菜必须坚强。本菜要求夫尔教她剑术。开始夫尔不答应因为他认为女孩子的手不适合拿剑，但最后还是经不起本菜的苦苦哀求。于是，本菜开始和夫尔学习剑术。和夫尔在一起的日子过得很充实，开心。某一天，当本菜不经意的注视着他时，才发现她已对夫尔心动了。这些日子，奶奶也察觉到夫尔的改变。“夫尔，你是不是爱上公主了？”奶奶温和地问。虽然爱情在心里发芽时，但大家都知道这是无法被认同的恋情。

梦想的天堂

2008-11-29T18:24:00.000-08:00

褪色的书页记忆
倘若闭上双眼就会再度浮现

是否会闭上双眼，
让思绪暂时放纵
绕着回忆旋转

我期待乘着梦想的云朵
带我飞过悲伤绝望
来到梦想的终点
展翅飞翔把
朝着希望的天堂

在叹息的瞬间，
时光已慢慢的流逝了

Physics 960/2

2008-11-25T19:33:00.001-08:00

Finally physics paper passed...YAHOO!!!
My friends told me that the Biology's question out of trend
luckily the physics still follow the trend...
At least the question is quite familiar with me...
The question is easier than i expected,overall i can do it
But i cant sure whether the answer is right...
Still hav uncertainty n the question dunno how to do@@...
From yesterday i tried to coax myself not to nervous
I can do it...
No matter what is the result,at least i try my best
because i worry i cant sleep well ...but i still cant sleep well at the night

Im so relax now but the MM 2 tomorrow i still quite worry
Compare to paper 1,my paper 2 is weaker....
Because of the vector...n the 3 dimensional question...
Angle between this plane n those plane all confusing me until now!!!
Maybe my imaginary on this aspect is very weak
but i am indeed a day dreamer,dun doubt about this.

Basically,I satisfied with my performance...
I can do well in MM2 !!!
Just go ahead...

我曾经悲伤也曾经快乐

2008-11-22T01:49:00.000-08:00

我喜欢哭，眼泪容易掉
面对过去，我没办法释怀
不管开心或哀伤，告诉自己已经过去
努力忘记，悲伤的回忆
用力回想, 雀跃的感觉

只是人脑并不是电脑
不是按下delete就能统统删掉
我没办法把想忘记的回忆丢掉
有些事，会不经意的忘记
有些事，却清晰地在脑里回荡

我也有想忘记的过去，
我曾经不快乐
想做个没烦恼的人
只是人生并没有那么简单
无论多么开朗单纯的人
背后总会有个忧郁的另一个自己
而我有时却被另一个不想面对的自己束缚
无法解脱

I CAN DEFEAT U!!!

2008-11-21T04:53:00.000-08:00

OMG!!!Who can help me???
Im very nervous now!!!
Physics is my greatest fear!!!
Im a physics student,if i cant do well in physics paper...
Im really shame to be a physics student
I put most of my effort on this subject
But the fact is...my weakest subject

Paper 2 will be at 26Nov... ....
What can i do is...just study
Dun care too much the result.
Just try my best...
GO AHEAD
Physics,im coming!!!

Hungry post

2008-11-18T01:32:00.000-08:00

Yesterday actually cant sleep because of the nervous
Yet i forced myself to sleep if not
today i will be suffered.
Today im very energetic!!!
I ate a hard boiled egg n some chocolate before fighting
3 hours passed in a jiffy
Luckily i still had enough time to finish it...
We study hard for 1 n half year jus because of this few hours exam==
So need to be careful when answering the paper
Think twice before write down the answer@@

I was really hungry that time...
need to cook after back home
mum not here,no one cook for me
Im starved!!!
OMG!!!mum,come back n cook for me la!!!!
im very hungry!!!starving now~~~~~

作战前夕

2008-11-17T05:16:00.000-08:00

该怎么说呢？
心里的确有很多感觉
但怎么形容

念了一年半的书
到底是废物还是进入大学的门票
都靠明天和接下来的考试
谁不想是后者？

有点兴奋，也许是时间把学过的东西秀出来了
放在脑袋里太久就会生锈
有点担心，害怕自己还不够资格打赢这场战
有点惆怅，已经不能留在自己的故乡念书了
6年的小学生活加7年的中学生活
回忆是真的

今天，天气很冷
一向来怕冷的我，心了有点凉了
整个早上和下午剩我一个人
只有我家的小猪陪我聊天
偶尔温习功课，偶尔到处走走
就是不能静静的坐在那里几个小时
天气，真得很冷。。。。@@

今天的我特别安静，
除了偶尔唱唱歌和小猪聊几句
都没在开口了
多了沧桑的味道，笑容也虚伪了

厄运

2008-11-07T02:01:00.000-08:00

最近心情起伏不定
当我觉得
幸运之神降临的时候
又把一切都抽走
当我什么都不会参加physics quiz
却后来意外拿到merit时，那种兴奋的感觉难以形容
当我以为包裹的事都解决时，
那种放下心中的大石的感受也是非常轻松
只是有些事并不像我想象中那么如意
包裹的问题依然存在
而且是更严重！！！
我讨厌麻烦更讨厌要用钱解决的问题
晚上补习是把新买的水壶打翻了，
水倒的满地都是
感觉就像自己买了超便宜素质差得的东西一样
还要麻烦同学帮我抹掉
当时尴尬得像找洞钻
心情再次跌入谷底

信心再次被击垮。。。
我的天啊！！！

The last fight

2008-10-25T02:28:00.000-07:00

study study study

im so nerdy@@

I will try not to lazy...although it is hard for me
24 days left!!!
Chemistry ,Pengajian Am, Physics n Mathematics
all made me crazy!!!
i will control myself by not surf the internet in this period
because i found that i cant study afterward if i online
It seem unreasonable but it is true...
T.T
No more excuse for me to lazy
no matter how STPM is a great challenge for me
the first step for me to enter the university...
Im pra_U now!!!
So is it worth for me to give up???
Y cant i jus work hard for this important moment
I will try...
Just Try It!!!

Dun sleep again!!!

2008-10-14T19:35:00.000-07:00

Hey friends!There is still 1 month before the exam...
Here to give some inspiration rose our spirit
This exam is the most important in this 1 n half year
It time for our effort paid...
If u still sleepy while open the book,
ITS TIME TO WAKE UP
If u want sleep,after the exam u can sleep unlimited
No one will stop u or bother u
No more reasons or excuse for us to lazy!!!
Cut off all the gossip n do more revision at school
Do u really want to become the "shit"of the school
U wish to get this "honour"?
No way!!!!

Still feeling no confident to yourselves?
Its not the time to doubt ourselves,
we need to trust ourselves
how can this 2 years we dun get any input?
We r not idiot ok
Jus need to do more revision n exercise
Take good care on our health
N the most important thing is be confident to yourselves!!!!
Determination & having high-spirit to face the exam
Miracle will happened when u trust yourselves

just to show off my new spec...
Although the new one quite similar with previous one

Im not study at that time@@...That's y cant concentrate in study....

Random post

2008-10-14T00:49:00.000-07:00

This is the special edition of the making of the preparation for Snail(1008)&Vchin 1014
We create a funny wishing video for Snail since we cant celebrate with him here but he is always in our mind...U r not forgotten^^
A handmade album for Vchin n Snail as birthday gift...
We dun even hav one although we love it so much !!!
But nvm,after the exam we will made one for ourselves !!!
Our Snakiss album!!!

vchin
sapphire
wynn
vnnie
snail
snakiss

Sunway Pyramid(sp)

2008-10-04T18:59:00.000-07:00

Kim yee,Sing ta,Voon ni,Wooi chin n me had been at sp yesterday.
Really disappointed that Wen xuan cant join since we planned for it long time ago
We arrived there safety as we dunno how to go there.
Had fun here n enjoyable.Girls like shopping very much!!!
Here r some pic we took ...
No need to write more,photos will show u

bakuteh...our breakfast
sp sp

before
after
outside toilet
Just for fun
My lunch at gas oline...the decoration of this restaurant nice n creative !!!
The most handsome???with the president of tanjong rambutan?

on the way
waiting for the ice
delicious ^^

We totally tired n exhausted ...However, a great n nice shopping day with friends!!!

My life...circle...Ferris Wheel

2008-09-28T18:17:00.000-07:00

Sometimes,life is like a ferris wheel
one moment ur heading up
and the next ur at the bottom
and throughout my whole journey repeat this endless circle of ups n downs
Sometimes,i lost ...
Life seem so unreasonable
Its not fair n not acceptable!!!
I want to cry,want to scream,want to shout out
Yet,i can't
I need to continue this journey hopefully
although there is ascend of light,i cant see my future
This is an endless journey with no end of sight
Be strong,girl

I'll find it__the future
since life is like a circle,
i create my own myth^^

讨厌这样生活！！！

2008-09-26T03:01:00.000-07:00

最近怎么了？
生活糟透了！！！
好烦啊！！！
我相信每个人的人生中会有低潮
人不可能一辈子都那么好运
幸运之神不会永远眷顾着我
也许他只是偶尔离开我一下
帮助更需要的人
也只能这样安慰自己了

只是狼狈倒霉的生活没有亲生体验过也没想到会是那么无助
我愤怒，不服，不甘，甚至是埋怨
当不快乐的事一下子发生在我身上，
还没来得及反应
另一样不愉快的事又发生了
让我毫无招架之力

没想到我的pengajian am paper 1 竟然只对24题！24/60
我从未拿过那么差的成绩
这一科就把我辛苦拿的成绩拉下来
这一次预考的成绩的却差得让我感到羞耻
平均也只有3。09
我的朋友说的有道理
她说这次大家都有进步，只是谁进步的比较快
赫然发现原来只有我还在原地
泪想流但没资格
是我不争气，怪不得谁

不知是压力还是睡眠不足
脾气变得很坏不说
心情也显得非常郁闷
脸上开始出现让人抓狂的现象
嘴唇干裂，眼睛冒出不知名的东西，
就连青春痘也不放过我！！！

有人说只要保持好心情所有好事就降临了
只是现在的我怎么也开心不起来

Naive

2008-09-25T05:25:00.000-07:00

I never been so disappointed to myself!
I deeply found that im useless.
Although i noe im not a genius ,
so i need to pay more efforts than others
I always remind myself the responsible of being a student
but i never study hard
I left behind others,most of them ready for the exam
How about me?Im jus a failure
Again,i doubt myself

Im always the unlucky one
Most of the things happened on me recently disturb my emotion greatly!
Those unhappy,unpleasant,unfortunately,absurd things came toward me!!!
Hence, i become easily provoked ,unreasonable,hot temper again
since i drop out my bad attitude n behavior for a period of time.
I received the post laju yesterday but not the parcel
it jus a letter to inform me to take the parcel which at KLIA now
I hav 2 choices right now
one is i go to take the parcel at KLIA
or appoint Post Malaysia as a customer agent
The charges is RM 49.50
Although im reluctant to pay but i hav no choice!
I jus wish that the parcel will reach here safety

What can i do now?
I try to persuade myself that everything will be ok soon
Dun think too much
Let bygones be bygones

Am I 18 years old???

2008-09-23T00:49:00.000-07:00

the result of trial so bad...
much less than expected-3.5 or above,
but now...the maximum score barely 3.0
Maybe im jus overestimate myself
haiz....disappointed!
but the most important is the coming STPM
Stress comes toward me
jus try to do my best by doing more revisions n exercises

Now im facing a emerge problem
A few days ago snail sent a parcel from Canada
then the recipient called me n informed me that the parcel arrived at Post Office LCCT
Alamak.I dunno where is it!
She also talked a lot of things that i dunno n cant hear clearly
When i tried to confirm what she said jus now
Or asked her when will the parcel arrived my home
She seem very impatient
I guess the parcel wont sent to my house but i need to go to the
Post Office LCCT which maybe located at KLIA
HOW!!!???
What to do now?
I really very nervous now!
How stupid im!!!
I jus felt like im still a child n cant solve even easy thing
Always rely on other...T_T
In desperation now ~~~~~~

文璇19岁啦

2008-09-06T04:07:00.001-07:00

其实8号才是她的生日啦
只是靖说想提早替她庆生
蛋糕好特别哦，我自己觉得啦
本来是贪吃的璇说想去吃KFC
说非常怀念，好久没吃
加上guardian有大减价
可以像安娣一样疯狂购物

到了那里填饱肚子加上庆生完了
总觉得怪怪的，原来最多鬼主意的宝贝不在了
他在庆生应该更特别更好玩
到了guardian大家的确很像傻婆般的购物
我们的确很疯狂
没有理智的买，我想我是最冷静地吧
因为最穷的就是我！！！

忘记靖说了一句话
大概是这样的
他说：“这个买五份咯！诶？我忘了龙不在了..."
原来大家都习惯了他的存在
每次听到Back at one这首歌特别有感觉
虽然他不能和我们庆生
我们也不能替他庆生
但我们的精神一直都在

The fear

2008-09-01T07:17:00.000-07:00

Days turned from months into weeks,weeks into days...
2morrow start my trial exam...
Lack of self-confident always be my greatest weakness
I jus feeling my spirits sink lower n lower...
Disbelief with my own ability...
Can i do better?
I doubt myself.
I felt a seed of fear growing deep inside me!
How i defeat fearfulness & stay clam to face examination
Fade away all the uncertainty & suspicion,
built up my confident...
Confidence in myself is the first step on the road of success.
What i need to do is close my eyes,take a long long breath...
Standing in front the mirror & looking at the reflection
say to her:"U can do better"

无聊的中伤

2008-08-14T22:16:00.000-07:00

我对朋友的要求一向都不高

因为我也没办法满足过大的要求

交朋友只要开心舒服就好

对于不相熟的朋友，更是河水不犯井水

学业，待人处事，态度一塌糊涂

行窃，撒谎，作弊却样样精通

我不否认它是个聪明的人，但从今我对他却是彻底的看不起

我不讨厌他，偏偏他的所作所为让我感到恶心

对于他无理取闹的指控

清者自清

嘴长在别人脸上，无法控制

名誉受损，无可避免

心又不甘，无能为力

我想澄清，只怕越描越黑

我曾经同情他

没人注意他，听他说话

原来我都是多余的

人的言语可以很美妙也可以很可怕

流言蜚语让人感到害怕

改变一个人想法，令人产生误会，憎恨

语言的力量让我感到佩服同时也敬而远之

有时讲者无心听者有意

也会让关系破裂

我把仅剩的友谊还给了他

相信他的人不是无知

只是有时事实太抽象了

让人看不透

friends

2008-08-14T02:17:00.001-07:00

有人坚信世上没有永恒真正的友谊

人都是自私的

为了自己的利益不折手段

人都是可怕的

努力伪装，尔虞我诈

人都是不诚实的

不能坦诚相对，付出真心

不敢付出，是怕得不到相同的回报

对于所谓的友谊感到恶心，

不屑接受别人的好意

肯定又想利用我了

看透人类的人生百态

面具背后隐藏的真实面貌让人不寒而栗

我相信纯洁的友谊

只要换个方式对待友谊

多一份关怀，少一份计较

就会发现它是美好的

朋友，是可以分享喜悦和悲伤

陪你度过宝贵的青春年华

朋友在人生的旅程里

是重要的

不同的人生阶段拥有不同的朋友

能经得起时间的考验才是真正的朋友

多年不见，某天在街上巧遇：”我记得你，你就是XXX”

聊上整个无聊的下午，述说着当年美好的回忆

压力

2008-08-11T01:57:00.001-07:00

头痛啊！预考要到了，我还在醉生梦死。。。

没有酒精的迷惑，却总感觉轻飘飘的

渐渐看不清前方的路，

脑子开始不能做出明智逻辑的决定

怀疑着，我是否迷失了？

梦幻灭了，只是人还不想醒

现实，依然残忍

就算多不想面对，该来的总会来

选择面对也许还有存活的几率

放弃了就不能再翻生了

是谁判了死刑？

犯人在送上绞刑台的那一刻，

或许他已后悔，心想：

“如果可以重新选择,我一定不会犯罪”

只是人生并不能重来

所以一旦作了决定，就不要让自己有后悔的机会

我会找到正确的路，仔细考虑我的未来

不必为我担心

人总要长大

至于预考，绕了我吧。。。

守护爱情

2008-08-06T20:21:00.000-07:00

天下无不散之宴席

就算再亲的人，有一天

我会离开他们或是他们会离开我

因为我们都有各自的生活

对于他的离去，我不在乎

只因想伪装内心的不舍

我应该舍得因为那不是结束

只是另一个开始

感情将会进入另一个阶段

那天起，过着各自的生活

不同的环境，朋友，生活方式

遥远的距离，时差的考验

我不舍，我在乎

Action without 3

2008-07-27T01:34:00.000-07:00

Theme:Black & White
Location:Kuala Selangor

I wish to seek for your forgiveness because i forgot to bring battery.Camera here but without battery...I jus a useless camera...Sorry for cause the inconvenient to all of you.Without camera,we still can continue !Nothing can sabotage our plan...YENG

*3 absent that day.However,we hope she can join us for next operation!We r a team!!!

KFC

2008-07-27T00:47:00.000-07:00

I can conclude that we indeed love KFC!!!On the average ,I visited KFC twice a week.I jus dun understand y we addict with this unhealthy n high calories food.I guess i not dare to try the new food before my friends test it...Once i try the toasted twister ,i felt like want vomit...
Maybe the taste of cheesy same with the cheesy wedges!Sorry for those cheesy lover...Cant imagine how many weight we gained from KFC.But,we jus cant STOP ourselves for lovin it!!!

oh my god!!!

going in

Vnnie ,what ur eating?yerrr
15july 2008
6july 2008

04 july 2008

Hey!!!Ur cool

Bagan Nakhoda Omar(Sabak Bernam)

2008-07-22T03:10:00.000-07:00

Im jus too lazy to write about it since there r 2 posts about it
I cant think about description!!!JAM!!!

MUET

2008-07-16T05:18:00.000-07:00

Today, MUET result released. This was second time .
I’m deeply disappointed with my result, Band 4.
No improvement (T*T ) SAD
But after consider my English level ,I became slightly disappointed
Actually im quite confident compared to the first time
because it was easier for me.
Wonder what is the feeling of obtained Band 5?
It must be GREAT!!!
However, congrat to those who achieve band 5.
U all did a great job.Im proud of you,my friends
For those who not satisfied to their result,dun be sad because we tried our best alr
Sometimes,we need luck…
Just to inform that I dun want to take again
I need time to recover…Haiz
Take it easy…@@

讨厌的人

2008-07-15T02:47:00.000-07:00

讨厌不懂礼让，没风度，欺善怕恶的人
讨厌娇柔做作，勾引男人，表里不一的人
讨厌不尊重别人，生命，和自己的人
讨厌不争气，没梦想的人
讨厌不诚实，不守信用的人
讨厌以貌取人，瞧不起人的人
讨厌爱吹牛，没实力的人
讨厌对感情不认真的人

其实，我更讨厌这样讨厌着别人的我

其实，每个人的心中都藏着一颗爱的种子
只是，有些人忘记为它浇水，
而使它不能萌芽；
有些人却每天用心的照顾，
使它绽放美丽且芬芳的花朵

金子焕

追逐的幸福

2008-07-12T03:13:00.000-07:00

有人为了填补心灵的寂寞而恋爱
有人为了治疗心中的伤而恋爱
有人为了找个人来陪而恋爱
有人为了炫耀自己的男/女友而恋爱
有人更是不知为了什么而恋爱
你又是为了什么而渴望爱情?
爱情对你而言是什么？
生病时在身边照顾
伤心时在身边陪伴
想哭时有肩膀守候
那只是爱情的一部分，朋友也可以做到
真正的了解自己到底需要什么才追求
有人一生都在寻睨爱情
最后却赫然发觉已经不知道自己要求什么
茫茫人海中要找到自己的另一半的确不容易
找到了就要好好珍惜
决定了对方就不要三心两意
爱情是关于两个人
长期相处会互相了解对方，不管是优缺点还是生活方式
爱情不只有甜蜜浪漫还要有生活
是否可以一起相处和互相忍让
麻木寻找爱情只会让自己受伤
有时伤害的不止是自己也会伤害到对方
当你想找个人恋爱时，是否该问自己
“我想要什么？”

选择执著还是感激

2008-07-12T03:10:00.000-07:00

我的手指是属于粗粗短短的
所以我从来不做指甲彩绘因为我没有漂亮的手
当一个人缺了一些东西就会开始羡慕
羡慕别人修长的手指

既然是天生的就应该欣然接受，没办法啦
人家说这样的手才是好命的手，听到时还真是开心
说起来我的确实满好命的，生活没遇到什么大风大浪
也没缺什么，可以上学，交朋友，玩耍，恋爱
不是每个人都能像我那样
人要懂得感恩，知足常乐。。。
只有放下才能感受身边的小小幸福
有时就是太执著才会失去
不要太在意别人的眼光，
这现实的世界就是这样

所以我不再羡慕而是感激上天给了我一双好命的手

校园记事-无聊篇

2008-07-10T05:55:00.000-07:00

最近生活很无聊，就开始注意身边的事物或人
留意校园又出现哪对情侣，新鲜的八卦绯闻都不放过
校园最八卦的非我们莫属了，哈哈
我想最可怜的是被我们盯上的就是情侣吧！
之前有一对我们觉得不对称得情侣被我们观察一段日子后，
突然分手了。我们也觉得很错愕。
现在观察其他情侣是心里还是会怕怕的，万一又分手了我们就惨了。
难道我们有什么诅咒，只要被盯上就会没好下场？
应该不会啦，我们还没那么厉害
只不过我们有着过人的智慧，不平凡的思考能力
可以很准确地分析他人的想法和事情的经过
可是有时我们的本能却完全不能发挥，遇到高手了啊！
他们的想法完全猜不透，伤脑筋啊！
可是我们八卦侦探队是不会那么容易放弃的
侦探的精神------追根究底!!!@@

Tmn Alam

2008-06-26T20:04:00.000-07:00

Finally,this time we brought Tian together with us to KFC.
He complained about us with not bring him 2gether.
We had our own reasons because the car was full n we thought that
he wont like to go around with us.
However,we do hav a fond memory n brand new experience at Tmn Alam^^

Miss Pink

2008-06-11T02:50:00.000-07:00

That day teacher asked me:"DO u like pink?Because i saw ur jacket,ur bottle n ur pencil also pink in colour."Ya.I indeed a PINK LOVER.Not only that,my clothes,my tuition bag,my alarm clock also pink.Girls should use pink especially cute girl^^

In my point of view.pink represents Beauty,Sweet,Charm&Soft. Im a pink-addict ,even when im shopping i jus cant stop myself to buy the stuffs which are pink in colour.My mood will become better when i saw pink.That's y im not hot-tempered as before.

P_Passion
I_Irresistible
N_Nice
K_Kiss

Above is my latest collection__Lady tumbler.If u got go Watson then u will see this.The price so attractive,only RM5 .Furthermore,it is pink!!!
Capacity:400 ml
Stainless steel
Leak resist?I dun think so
However,my best partner when im sore throat.

Pangkor Trip

2008-06-10T08:04:00.000-07:00

This is my last trip for this 2008 year.After this trip,i need to pay much effort on my study to achieve my goal.So, i decided to relax ,forget about all the stress & put off the burdens on my shoulder.

We all enjoyed it n realised the time passed in a jiffy .I wouldn't forget when we playing on the vast expanse of beach,cycling around the island n all the moments we experienced together.We r extremely intoxicated in this 3 days 2 nights.We can take this opportunity to recharge our energy after exhausted for our mid year exam.

Holiday

2008-05-25T06:22:00.000-07:00

Mid year exam finished edi...Im so sick with myself because i cant do well ...
i realize that many things i still dunno jus because i havent master the concept very well.
That's y i cant answer the questions n feel confused...This is a failure.
Exam is a best way to test wat we learn n how far we master the subject.
I need to work harder.I still dun want to give up.NO WAY!!!

there's a few months before STPM exam,just try my best n dun think too much.
Go ahead n pursue for wat i wan.I wan obtain excellent result in STPM.
Determination~~~~~
Holiday is coming.
Holiday planning:Dreaming + Relaxing +Eating+Tuition-ing

stress

2008-04-28T04:14:00.000-07:00

When mid-year exam n MUET test come together=STRESS!!!
i dunno how to handle it ,but i wish to get good result in this exam.
i wish to do better compare to last year!!!
After pass this mid year then the next challenge should be trial exam followed by
STPM examination!
Oh my god!!!
i jus a little girl(although 18 years old edi@@) cannot afford so much pressure!!!
i must do well in STPM examination before i can achieve my plan to go to further my study at
Canada.
This is a first time for me to do such a great decision in life.
im jus a coward girl who too eager to avoid danger,difficulty or plan.
u can assure me of cowardice,but i still not dare to make any changes in my life.
Is that a dream for me to realistic it?
it seem so far for me...
Canada,happiness,dream,courageous... ....

My choice

2008-04-24T07:02:00.000-07:00

那是很久的事了。那时，我觉得他是个对感情不认真的男生。
觉得他吊儿郎当，在班上老是睡觉，脑子里不知在想些什么。
身为好朋友的我不能看他这样下去了，总是劝他对感情要认真。
他就会对我说：“你们都不了解我，我只是在寻找最适合我的人，不试试怎么知道？“
就知道他这个人不认真，连说话也这样，快气炸了！！！
这男人怎么这样？一点安全感都没有！
长得有多帅？还好吧。。。麻麻地啦

现在，终于知道了他说的寻找适合的人的意义。
兜兜转转，原来我们生命中重要的另一半一直都在身边
上天让我们认识了十年，缘分才悄悄的降临我们身上。
缘来的时候，我很错愕。
没想到我会爱上一个我认为对爱情不认真的家伙。
应该接受吗？
我要的安定感觉和渴望被呵护的心，他能给吗？
爱上他,会受伤吗？
应该放胆去爱吗?

爱他的心终于战胜了理智。
就跟着感觉走一次吧！
令我意想不到，他和我印象中的不一样
他都不让我受伤，反而是我的不懂事让我们都受伤
吊儿郎当的男人，变成我这辈子都想依赖的人
开始感慨缘分为什么那么迟才来
也许上天已经给了我十年的时间来认识他
只是我还没能真正了解他
所以才需要用下半辈子来慢慢了解对方

girls like to cry

2008-04-20T05:39:00.000-07:00

我承认我是一个爱哭的人
爱哭也许是因为人生中经历的事还不够多
不知道真正的人生考验是什么
爱哭有什么不对？
我就是喜欢哭，可以把心里不开心的事都哭出来
又没人知道，只要躲起来哭

是不是应该变得坚强一点？
不要因为小事动不动就哭
没必要吧？
哭是个人的事，又不会打扰到别人
哭过了，世界依然美好
所以当你有心事，不知向谁倾诉的时候
就大声哭吧！

Love

2008-04-18T23:54:00.000-07:00

爱情可以很甜也可以很苦。。。
它不像亲情，因为亲情无论如何那也是一辈子的，
想斩断也斩不断。。。
爱情是脆弱的，禁不起时间，金钱或距离的考验。
爱情也可以是坚强的，正因为有了考验爱情才显得更难能可贵。
只有真正的爱对方才能得起考验，一起携手克服种种的困难。

爱情只因心灵的杂质改变了成分。
既然爱了就放胆去爱吧！
就算到最后伤的遍体鳞伤，起码不曾放弃相爱的机会。
拥有过的甜蜜回忆，已经足够回味一辈子了。
甜蜜的回忆留在记忆里，伤心痛苦的回忆尝试忘记。。。
人生里不应只充满悲痛和遗憾。

在那么有限的生命里，
能被所爱的人深深爱过，
或许不应在奢求什么
人生本来就充满遗憾

还会怀疑爱情吗?
如果怀疑，
那是因为自己爱得不够

tarot

2008-03-26T08:12:00.000-07:00

You are The Wheel of Fortune

Good fortune and happiness but sometimes a species of
intoxication with success

The Wheel of Fortune is all about big things, luck, change, fortune. Almost always good fortune. You are lucky in all things that you do and happy with the things that come to you. Be careful that success does not go to your head however. Sometimes luck can change.

What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.

My class

2008-02-01T00:47:00.000-08:00

Now upper 6 edi,but my class still like in lower 6.Still havent realise that STPM is approaching.Our future are depend on this examination.This exam is even more important than SPM,PMR,or UPSR.We are adult edi,can distinguish between right n wrong.So,i need to change my behaviour n set my mind that is>>>obtain excellent result in STPM n enter university.This is my responsibility as a Form 6 student .

I believe that relationship between student n teachers are very important.But out teacher cried n complained to teachers n principle that we didnt respect her...Im very sympathize with her because my classmates didnt respect her at all.We talk in front her when she is teaching(Although im also one of them).One of my classmate even said she is a hormonal imbalance female.Thats y she was offended.I can understand her feeling of annoyance n upset.

Be a teacher really hard !Pay only RM2000 salary a month then need to endure with us.This is not her principle to be a teacher.Maybe she also think that this is her fault y they didnt listen to her .She really cant "tahan" edi.

Although i know we r classmates,we need to faces this problems together but their behavior really too over for me.I cant accept what they did.They didnt feel regret this is what im so annoy about them.Even u dislike the teacher we also cant do that toward our teacher.However,she is our teacher.She really sad n disappointed at us.I feel sorry to teacher n wish to apologize .

I choose the way to study Form 6 then i need to do my best.No more reason or excuse for me to be lazy.Im sure i can do it,so cannot give up easily!I accept this challenge without any grumble!Go ahead n explore my future!!!

... ... ...

2007-11-23T06:55:00.000-08:00

Y my life so boring?Especially when holidays,nothing to do.Although have many book need to do revision but also need to relax also.I'm almost crazy now!!!!!!!
I wish go to relax,shopping n playing very much!!!Dun wan always stay n home n doing the same things.Repeat everyday n everyday!Eating,sleeping n watching tv.Wish to have some surprises in my life,at least no so boring...
Maybe this is my life.Boring n meaningless...But at least i need to do something to let my life wont be so meaningless.Not go to trip or doing extraordinary things to impress my life,but to improve my study.I noe i'm worse so need to improve,hope i can get excellent result in STPM!